back home

i have been away for outstation work for a week and didnt have time to update much. I feel bad. There's not much difference, maybe my skin is less red now but still require much lotion.

I am traveling for work again this wknd and am hoping i will have time to share more stories.

Take care everyone.

the crunch time

my books have not arrived yet...i need them by friday before i start traveling...

anyhow...i am spending more time at work than usual...it's the late evening work that gets me more productive. quiet, less stress. no buzzing sound of people complaining at the back..

anyhow..here's my current condition. it's just under maintenance with lots of nivea cream. i can't wear the olive oil or oil based product to work. i need to rush to work and i can't be smelling like olive or get stain on my clothes. i work in the ermm...frontlline if you may call it.

i am still taking the olivenol liquid diligently. i will not give up hope and i need to be strong.
i am fasting quite a bit lately to detox. hopefully it will work.

as to avoiding milk - i need to get a clearer picture if i should avoid totally. as i must have milk once a day....can't wait to read my book!

anyhow..have a good week ahead everyone!
happy deepavali to those who are celebrating. yummy maruku!

another week..

it's another long stressful week at work. i love what i do. but it's too stressful for me.
the skin is flaring. it's so obvious stress trigger it more than anything....

i am trying not to be stressed. but there are way too much to do and so little time....

anyhow..i never miss my olivenol intake daily. it's been a little over a month and although i haven't seen big improvements i am still hopeful..

groceries shopping

i know it's a little beyond 11 pm now but i have just a little more work to finish.


anyhow...i went grocery shopping with mom earlier, i got myself a week of supply of:

1) fish - the types i eat as i'm quite a picky fish-eater
2) tofu
3) Vegetables - organic grown
4) Yogurt - i am aspiring to have yogurt for breakfast daily ...

today will also hopefully be the last day i am eating chicken as a dish...at least for the next month or so. i am praying that i will be patient enough...

i have also just bought the highly recommended book "Healing Psoriasis, The Natural Alternative by Dr John O A Pagano" on amazon and hope to get the book in a week's time. :)

as i will be traveling overseas for work in a couple week's time it would be good to have a good book to read. the question is how do i read it subtly at airport and on the plane without anyone asking "Do you have Psoriasis?"

LOL/

good night everyone, have a good week ahead!
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p/s : as for my condition today - i am using way too much nivea cream to moisturize. if my skin gets dry especially my back i will start scratching.... i realize i am spending quite a bit for creme! i need to find an alternative, cheaper moisturizer as effective as this rich creme....any suggestions?

my sleeping time

when i was in secondary school, particularly in form 4 and form 5, i had so much trouble getting quality sleep at night. i was very uptight and was an introvert who couldn't care less about anything that goes around - except about doing well in school. that was the early days of my insomnia...

when i went over to university i had a very active lifestyle. and never had problem sleeping anytime i want.

then...came working life...that's also the beginning of my P journey...
my sleeping cycle was distorted - especially during the days when i am too tired and mentally drained at work. i'd be lucky to get about 3-4 hours of quality sleepat each night.

for now..i force myself to sleep by 11pm. sometimes it stretches till 12.
but after the email from ManHon, i will try the next 2 weeks to ensure even how busy i am, i must sleep at 11 p.m.

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ManHon has also forwarded an email from a P patient whose condition has improved significantly with olivenol, fish oil and less meat diet. i think i can try fish oil soon...but i am still unsure about intake of dairy products...i am taking the AlphaLipid milk daily as additional supplement..i am wondering if i should stop taking it?

what do you guys think? would taking milk makes my healing process slow?

have a good weekend. it's good to know i can write all these things to people who can relate. :)

week 3

it felt like time was really envious of me. the more i think of making more time to heal from this illness, the more i get hold back.

the last 2 weeks of Ramadhan went really fast, with me most of the time either breaking fast in the car or in the office with junks before going home at about 9pm daily.

i sometimes hate the job i used to love so much. but i hate to know i am not getting better as well.

but going back late everyday + barely having time to moisturize the whole body + not eating properly = worsened condition.

i know i am now supposed to start taking only 1mm twice a day but i felt like i want to continue taking 2mm twice a day - i want to see the improvements i made 2 weeks ago...would that be ok?

anyway..here's my bad condition after a long day at work in pants and no time to moisturize...

right leg

left leg

i have some time before bed time now, i'd like to catch up on more inspiring stories and quit feeling sorry on myself.

take care and have a great week ahead!

week 2

i was too busy the past week to update this blog. but praise to God, i think i am seeing improvements :)

hopefully i will be able to upload some pics tomorrow.

another week left before raya and i do want to feel a little more confident :)

have a good week everyone!